DIVINE EMPOWERMENT

Knowledge seeps through my veins runs in my blood and empowers all of my body

Wisdom fuels my soul for my ancestors live within me, through me  for I am my ancestors creation

       I shed the layers of the mundane way of processing and understanding who I am  and open up the path to divine understanding that:

                                          I am not Dominican, Latin or Light skinned but that.....
                                             

                                                     I AM A BLACK WOMAN!!!!!!
For I understand the blood that runs within me and the wisdom and power that was passed down generations and generations before me  because my roots to the Divine Black Nation Is what EMPOWERS me and will always be a part of me!!!!!!!!!!

DIVINE LOVE

 When I see Him I stare because my eyes try to read him cause there is something about him that's different , different like me


My soul Comprehends yet my mind struggles to understand

My lips are sealed when engaging in conversation but my eyes, my eyes say it all
Just one look and I knew he was something out of this world
Something beyond imagination  cause my soul knows but my mind struggled to comprehend
I added the ed to the word struggle cause my mind is now in tune with my soul cause know all of me knows
that:

He is that something that I yearned for, the one something I always wanted, he is everything I could ever ask for and more  because  my mind and soul both know that he is my DIVINE LOVE, the one that understands me, the one who looks at me from the inside out and embraces and cherishes who I am, the one that can stay up with me for hours talking and has my same point of view but most of all : HE'S THE ONE WHO CAN STAND BY MY SIDE AND REACH THE HEAVENS WITH ME.

SITTING IN BED THINKING

He I am sitting up in bed thinking to my self
who will I be, where am I going in life
what road leads to success
I put my hands against my chest and I feel my heart beat to the same tune that my two feet walk to
Should I listen to my heart and let emotions lead me or do I think the logical and go down a career that will make me become something
Then if I go down the logical will I be happy, will my life  be all that I wanted it to be  will my dreams come true
Then if I go down the road where my heart takes lead I fear that I will  fall down and never be able to get back up again since I have fallen once before in the temptation of love
I don’t know which road to take, which path I am on, what else life has to throw at me  but I know I got to be strong
Strong for my future, strong for myself, Strong enough to tackle any obstacle in my way cause at the end of the day I realize that  the path on which we walk on depends on the goal we have in mind
We tend to wonder the outcomes  and fear that  we may have chosen the wrong path  but in the end there is no wrong or right  only trial and error  because  we all make mistake but we just have to get back on our feet again and just keep moving forward letting the mistake  become a lesson  and letting your ambition towards reaching your goal grow stronger
Cause in the end when you think about it  there is never an ending point to the path
and it all depends on the way you may perceive it


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THE TEARS THAT ROLL DOWN MY CHEEK

Tears roll down my cheek not because I’m happy but because I’m sad because you remind me of the past and everything that I have been through because I see the reflection of myself within you

It’s funny how when people call men pimps and man whores I usually stay away from the men they are referring these names to  but this time something was different  something about you grabbed my attention   I caught myself thinking the other day I would rather you be a man whore and entertain yourself than for you to want to kill yourself because I would rather you be in this world than for you to try to find another way out because for some reason I know that you have something to do in this world your life has a purpose no human has been given so many chances by god

You say you hate how the innocent die young that they die without even wanting to die but you who wants to die is still alive walking this day

You feel like you are not innocent yet I see the innocence in you because I understand what it takes to do everything you can for your kids and what it is to be depressed feel the big hole within your chest  cause they are a missing part of you

Like I said before I had to give up my kids as a last result because when I tried killing myself it never worked I haven’t done everything you have done to yourself but I have cut so deep and Ode on pills and I still lived through out it everyone thought I was crazy and on drugs but if they only knew that drugs don’t even take the pain away for long 

They might give you a buzz but when it comes to the end of the day that pain of not having the two most important things to you in your life kills you

I’m saying two cause I was pregnant with twins, they were my dream I was going to give birth to both  a girl and boy  but unfortunately  I had to give them up    I might be a 16 year old girl but I know to much for my own good I have experienced to much for my age  I had to raise myself as an adult cause I had no one there for me no one to love me I matured before time   I have always thought  different than others I have always taught myself to look deep within a picture to find the truth  and recently I have been looking deep within you  and  I find myself tearing because I wish I could have held you in your  times of need and honestly I’m glad your still alive even if you never end up to be my man  and even if you  just see me as pussy

STUCK IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD

Lately I have been stuck within my own little world trying to find peace within myself

Trying to re piece the little that is left of me
the little sanity i contain 'cause life's strain and hardship has gotten to me finally

Cause undoubtedly you came back to me at the right place wrong time
right place because you are to far away from me to let myself fall in love with you again

Wrong time 'cause my heart is already given to someone, someone who realized their love for me while you took your time year after year treating me like crap before you could come to the realization  that you would always miss me, but like I said before the day you woke up and realized you love me would be
the day I woke up with the person who already knew 'cause I'm through with letting you take over me,
I treated you like a king and I was abused emotionally, verbally, sometimes even physically cause you saw me as your toy

Your play thing, but one thing I can say is I'm no longer thinking of you cause I'm in love with the one who fell in love with me
The one who could see beyond the outer image, can read my heart beats before letters hit my lips and make words for me to speak, speak of my love for him, speak about the pain I endured being with you  and how  My new life, is all about me and him

No longer 'bout me and you

LEARN HOW TO LET GO

A poem of the obstacles encountered when trying to let go of the one you loved in the past.

I’m trying my hardest to let you, completely let you go

So this growing pain dosen’t linger any longer and this hunger for your love can settle down

So i don’t break down into tears

Day after Day wishing for you to come back to me because honestly i’m tired of waiting,waiting for you to
 see the light of day and open your eyes wide enough to see the truth

See that i really care about you and that i have been here with my heart in my hands wishing you could hear it’s silent screams

Each heart beat a word in a sentence    I  BUMP BUMP  LOVE  BUMP BUMP you.

But my mind, my mind tells me to leave you, let you feel the pain i felt when you broke my heart,but my heart, It screams for you yet again.

The pain over bearing my minds thoughts letting images of our past flood over the little sence i was making
Letting
         my
              heart
                        win
                               yet
                                      again

JOURNAL ENTRY FROM A TEENAGE DIARY

A teenage girl letting out her emotions into her diary because she feels like no one else will listen.

Dear Diary,
 Here we go again, all because of me being unable to resist you, resist the temptation of speaking to you once
again.

You see i told you, me and you  would  somehow meet me again but  this time, it’s my fault because i
contacted you.

Somehow I’m happy,happy that I was able to hear your voice again.

Happy that you actually came
into realization of how things were with us, on your own.

When you said to me “I’m sorry for treating you like
shit”, my heart stopped and tears were soon to start running down my cheeks, but this time no sadness was
involved but happiness.

I was happy for the fact that you have finally realized that i have always been there for
you. I wonder if i would have been in New York still at the time you expressed yourself to me like you did last night, if i would have taken you back.

 It also dawned on me  when you asked me If i have spoken about you to the people in my new school, I replied yes and you said if you speak about someone in your life to people you recently met, then it means you really love that person whom you were talking about.

I don’t know what to do,because my feelings for you seem neutral. It doesn’t hurt anymore when you are mentioned but it does make me ask myself what if. I miss the times we have spent together and the memories we shared, because seeing the new you is shocking me.

Hope fully  this time life’s unexpected turn is for the better